I am 37 weeks. I spent 80 days in the hospital so far and will be induced on December 5th if he decides to not come earlier.
This has been super rough for me but also amazing. I can't beleive the medical comunity and how they treat women like me. If I had not lost the other two babies there would be no way I could endure the crap they put me through at the hospital. I feel so bad for women who have no idea and learn the hard way that the doctors and nurses are not always right.
I had a few bad days recently. Its hard to imagine that for me it is more normal to call a mortuary after birth than a pediatrician. Its a lot of "What if he's not ok." and things like that. I just have 11 more days at the most. I cannot wait to meet this little guy.
Showing posts with label hospital bedrest. Show all posts
Showing posts with label hospital bedrest. Show all posts
Saturday, November 26, 2011
Saturday, October 8, 2011
things bedrest has taught me..
that if you straighten your hair it wont get so matted..I looked like a stray cat for weeks before I figured that out
that of all the things you miss shaving will be the most irritating one
that you will sweat in places you never sweat before
that nurses doctors and strangers will all have opinions about your situation that are rude, incorrect, and wrong.
that family and Friends will fall off the face of the earth.
that people will call you out of guilt but lie about plans and disease to get out of helping and seeing you.
that without support it can be the loneliest time of your life. throw in some hormones and your a mess.
that not being able to get things ready for your baby will be so hard .
that people will think you are faking even if you are in the hospital
that hospital food will not be that bad at first but then turn into something you have nightmares about.
that you miss sex even if you had no drive prior.
that having a baby shower will be hard upsetting and disappointing.
that doctors will ask you questions then ignore your answer unless you are dieing.
that every pain will be noticeable and concerning.
you will find yourself online shopping for weird weird things.
food cravings are more intense when you can't get anything yourself.
that if at home you might pee in some weird container because you are in pain and afraid to get up.
that baby kicks are so wonderful and remind you why you are doing it.
that of all the things you miss shaving will be the most irritating one
that you will sweat in places you never sweat before
that nurses doctors and strangers will all have opinions about your situation that are rude, incorrect, and wrong.
that family and Friends will fall off the face of the earth.
that people will call you out of guilt but lie about plans and disease to get out of helping and seeing you.
that without support it can be the loneliest time of your life. throw in some hormones and your a mess.
that not being able to get things ready for your baby will be so hard .
that people will think you are faking even if you are in the hospital
that hospital food will not be that bad at first but then turn into something you have nightmares about.
that you miss sex even if you had no drive prior.
that having a baby shower will be hard upsetting and disappointing.
that doctors will ask you questions then ignore your answer unless you are dieing.
that every pain will be noticeable and concerning.
you will find yourself online shopping for weird weird things.
food cravings are more intense when you can't get anything yourself.
that if at home you might pee in some weird container because you are in pain and afraid to get up.
that baby kicks are so wonderful and remind you why you are doing it.
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
I have been MIA
Why? Well its a long story. Then again maybe not really. About 6 weeks ago I went to my appointment to find out that my cervix had dropped down from 4cm to 2 cm. My doctor admited me imediatly and i spent the next 4 weeks in the hospital with no change, so they sent me home. After two weeks at home I went to another appointment and my cervix dropped to 1cm. Needless to say I am back in the hospital for the duration of this pregnancy. Obviously being at home does not help my situation for whatever reason. We can sit and speculate but just like all of the doctots no one knows why.
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