We finally got two doctors to agree. Took over 6 months. They both agree I have APS. THey both agree on treatment. Its such a reliefe but so annoying.
They both saw it so clearly. It was so obvious to them. Not on tests they ran. But on the ones my other doctors ran. The old tests. The ones I have been carrying around with me in a green folder for the past year. The ones seen by three other specialists and four Ob's, who were baffled.
The second, a haematologist, was very nice. He was pretty upset that it took me this long. He took a list of all of the doctors I had seen and wrote them a formal letter explaining my situation and where they need to fill knowledge gaps in their profession.
It was nice. He was sweet and told us we could try right away if we wanted. We decided to wait. THen a month later decided to try again.
We haven't told anyone. People ask me about it and I lie. But the weird thing is. At the idea of me trying to get pregnant again my friends and family are well very negative.
They aren't ready. I feel ready but their comments and weird behavior on the subject its pretty obvious they would rather us not. I understand the stress. I just dont want to wait two more years. I don't want to be over thirty. But most of all I don't want to spend the next 4 years losing babies. If its not going to work out. I'd rather it be sooner than later. And I'm only going to try this one more time. People are right. Enough can be enough. I never wanted four or fivr children. But it might end up that way. But i definatly don't want to lose another, but i feel bold enough to try again. If it went badly I would not be able to try again.
This month was a no go. So hopefully in march.
